I wish I didn't still feel so blue.
I wish I blogged anonymously, so I could write about some stuff that is going on and actually post it here instead of writing it and having it sit in my drafts box.
I wish they would hurry up and have the new girl start at work so I didn't have to work ten hour days anymore.
I wish I wasn't so tired.
I wish when I looked in the mirror I liked what I saw, instead of disliking my body.
I wish I could celebrate the 27 pounds I have lost instead of focusing on the number still to go.
I wish I didn't always feel like I don't fit in anywhere.
I wish something that is bringing some friends profound happiness didn't make me feel sad. I wish I could be there more to celebrate in their happiness instead of isolating myself so they can't tell I'm sad.
I wish my aunt wasn't sick. (She is very sick).
I wish I had air conditioning in my car. It is miserable to drive in if the temp climbs above 80 degrees. Heck, while I am wishing, I wish I could afford a new(used) car. The one I have is falling apart at the seams.
I wish I didn't have depressive episodes that made me feel like this. This has been a long one.
I wish I had a three day weekend. Oh wait-I do!
A three day weekend. Beautiful weather. Long bike rides. Corn on the cob from the Farmer's Market.
All things to be thankful for. I will try to focus on those things.
I am taking a little break from FB. Not a lot of people noticed(LOL). I will be back soon. I just found it sucking up a lot of my time and decided to step away from it for a bit. It probably seems kind of dramatic to deactivate my account, but it's the only way I can stay away. What is it about FB that makes you feel like you *need* to spend time there, even if you are trying not to?
If you could say a prayer for my aunt I would really appreciate it. She really needs them.