My Uncle is back in the hospital. I don't have too many details but I am worried.

We will most likely have to cancel our trip to Big Sur. I have been crying about it all day. It is the only vacation we get all year and I have been looking forward to it for so long. I am so sad.

We have not received anything from the unemployment department. At this point I don't believe we ever will. We are stuck in their appeals process and who knows how much longer it could take(for them) to sort it out. It is so disheartening. And frustrating.

My husband can not find a job. He has a Master's degree and he can't even get a job working at the gas station(and yes, he did apply).

We have to move when our lease is up in August but I can't find a place that will take us because without the unemployment we don't show that we bring in enough income. So basically we can't afford to stay where we are and we can't afford to move. Add this to that the fact that I have been in a bit of denial about the fact that we actually have to move, and it puts me in a bad place emotionally. I love where we live and I don't want to move. But right now we don't have any other choice. We're moving whether I like it or not. And I don't.

The doctor where I work is struggling financialy(who isn't) and is talking about cutting hours. I cannot afford to have my hours cut and may have to start looking for another job. I don't even have words to express how much anxiety this has been causing me.

The weather has been gray and cloudy and chilly for the last week and a half. It is not helping with my mood at all.

I keep trying to look on the bright side and think positively.

Today I am failing miserably.

I will try harder to do so tomorrow.