Saturday, March 12, 2011

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You know what I'm not good at?  Coming up with titles for my blog posts.  Thus the lame title of this one.  Hey, it's better than leaving it blank.

I have nothing exciting going on this week.   Last weekend was much more fun.

I have been making a few things for my Etsy shop, and working on a bunch of necklaces that were ordered.  I am going to finish them up tomorrow and get them in the mail by Monday, so if you are waiting for something, it's coming!

I have a lot of things laying around my house that I made and was saving for when we got  Sophie.  Lots of girly stuff.  Scrapbooks, magnets and other stuff.  I have decided I am going to try and get rid of some of it.  Some of it has been lying around here since before we started the adoption.  That's 6 years.  I know by wanting to get rid of these things it seems like I am giving up, and in a way I am.  Our paperwork is still in but my heart is starting to distance itself from it.  Joe's job situation hasn't changed.  We can't update our paperwork.  Every day that goes by is another day closer to having to pull out of the program.  Most days I am in complete denial about it, but other days it will hit me like a ton of bricks when I am sitting in my car or in the shower(the two places I allow myself to cry).  It's hard to let go of a dream you have had for almost 6 years.

So some of these things are going on Esty.  The first being this mini scrapbook.  It is 7 X 7 inches. It technically only has three pages, but each page is double sided, plus the front inside cover and the back, so it has 9 pages to place photos on.  I will personalize the front with the name of your choice. I am selling this for $15.00.  Here is the link:

I made this gift box with a scrapbook kit I had laying around.  I find that I use a lot of green and purple together.  Mostly because I like those colors, but I also realized those were the colors we used in Sophie's nursery, so that's probably why I am drawn to them so much.
  This is a 3 1/2 inch by 3 1/2 inch cardboard box decorated with acid free scrapbook paper.  It would make a cute box for the photo necklaces I make, or even a gift card.  A set of magnets would be cute in it too.  This is $5.00.  Here is the link:
Each corner has a different word on it. Believe, wonder, treasure, and discover.

I have only one of these available. I have decided not to sell them on Etsy, because I stole the design from someone else there and I don't feel right about selling something that isn't my design. This is $10.00.  E-mail me at chinaadopter(at)gmail(.com) if you would like it.  

**********This necklace has sold***********

I am quite happy with the way things have been going since I opened up my etsy shop.  If you look on there I actually only have 9 sales, but I have had many many more private sales that didn't go through the etsy site.  I'm just so happy people like some of the stuff I make.  Oh yeah, and the extra money isn't bad either.  :)  Sorry if it seems like I go on and on about it.  It is something that is taking up a lot of my free time lately and I'm not sure how many people I have who are my friends on FB but not here so I do a lot of cross posting.  Sorry if that is annoying!

Hmmmmm..........let's see, what else is going on in my boring life?

Oh yeah.  My car has been on the fritz.  We can't really afford a mechanic, and my FIL used to work on motorhomes, so my husband has been taking it every weekend to his Dad's to see if they can fix it.  Well because my FIL never worked on regular cars(let alone Fords), they have been doing  a lot of googling and simply trying one thing after another to see if that would fix it. Well it has been almost a month and no luck.  The car still runs, thankfully, but it was stalling a lot and idling very high at stop lights.  I was worried every single day and praying that it got me to work and back.  Well today they had a breakthrough and were able to fix the problem.  Finally.  Yay!  Now it is running fine again.  I am so grateful.

And now I have a bit of a rant.

I have a lot of doctors.  Primary Care, Nephrologist(kidney doctor), Urologist, plus a couple more.  What can I say.  When it comes to health related problems, I am high maintenance.  I wish that wasn't the case.

I have the utmost respect for doctors.  Most of my doctors are wonderful.  I have had a  few primary docs that weren't great but I simply found a new one that I liked and the problem was solved.

There is one type of doctor that I haven't had any luck with at all.  They are  psychiatrists.

From my experience, psychiatrists are idiots.  They are pompous. They are condescending. They are uncaring.  Their standard of care is deplorable.  I have yet to find one that I like(or that gives a rat's ass about me or my care).

I have gone through 6 psychiatrists in the last 2 and a half years.

Six. In the last 30 months.  They all sucked.  Every last one of them.

Maybe they are just overloaded with patients.  I get that.  I mean, they see a patient every 15 minutes.  

But you know what?  I work for an orthodontist and we see patients every 15 minutes too.  And yet I know every one of our patient's  names(and even their mom's names too) and if one of them has a major issue and calls to talk to us about it, we know what they are referring to.  If we don't know, we just look in their chart.  

Because you know what?  All of their history is right there in their chart.  

All you have to do is open it up and READ IT.  

This is something psychiatrists seem incapable(or unwilling) to do.  I actually had a doctor prescribe me a medication that was known to cause kidney problems.  

I said to the doctor "Are you sure I should take that?  It causes kidney problems and is not approved for people with kidney disease."  

Do you know what he said?  "Why?   Do you have kidney disease?"

{Smacks self in forehead}  

I had been seeing that particular doctor for over a year.

Needless to say I am no longer seeing him.  Problem is, I have been through 4 more since then.

I'm not asking for a lot. I just want a doctor who knows who I am after seeing them for a year, takes my concerns seriously and cares somewhat about my mental health.  Just a little bit.

P.S.  I know there are some of you thinking "Perhaps it is YOU that has the problem, and not the psychiatrists."  I can see why you might think that.  However, each of the 6 doctors I have seen over the last 30 months I have spoken with health professionals about and also know other people who have seen them and the consensus was the same.  They are simply not good doctors.

I have personally gone online and written a bad review on each of them.  If I can save even one person from having to endure the crappy care that I have received from these doctors then the time it took to do so  was worth it.

Rant over.

P.S. does anyone in the OC know of a good psychiatrist that will take a Blue Cross P.P.O.?  I'm getting desperate here.

Oh my, that was another long one.  I don't know what it is about the rambling posts lately.  Maybe I need to post more regularly.


Number 6 and no more counting! said...

well there is nothing like a good "rant". I admire you for putting it all out here.

I know exactly what you mean about how hard it is to let go of a 6-year old dream.

hang in there girlfriend.


Anonymous said...

Do you have to see a psychiatrist? I don't know what kind of meds you take, but I take anti-depressants and ant-anxiety meds and my family doc prescribes everything. Perhaps if you expressed your concerns to your GP (that you need to deal with someone who knows your WHOLE health history), he or she would take pity on you?