I was all set to have a pity party today.
I have been extra tired the last week or so. I have not been sleeping well. My arm hurts from my Tetanus shot and I have just overall been feeling crappy. My cell phone broke and I can't afford to get a new one right now. Joe not having a job is really putting a strain on our relationship. We are barely making it paycheck to paycheck. The list goes on.
Last night before I went to bed I was feeling very sad. Sorry for myself. Some tears were shed. (Some of those were shed over my phone being broken. I cried. Over a cell phone. I really need to get over myself).
So this morning I woke up and was still feeling sad. It's my day off so I didn't have to get up.
I was in bed in my pajamas with a cup of coffe and my computer. Gizmo was there too. Joe had to run an errand so I was all alone.
So I'm in bed, in my p.j.'s all alone feeling sorry for myself. Perfect setting for a pity party, right?
The conditions were just right.
Yet at the same time I was thinking about all the stuff going wrong in my life I was trying to remember all of the things I have to be thankful for too.
My car is old and falling apart.
But every day on my way to work we pass this bus stop where a man in a suit with a brief case is waiting for the bus. I have a crappy car. But I don't have to take the bus.
We live in a small space. Sometimes I miss our old, larger apartment.
But this apartment is cozier and much easier to clean.
I wish my husband had a job.
But I love that we get to spend so much time together.
We got rid of our cable to save money. I miss watching some of my shows.
But now that I spend less time watching t.v. I have been creating more, and reading more and just hanging out with Joe more. What's not to like about that?
I hate that my sister lives so far away. I miss my niece and nephew.
But my family is healthy. The fact that I only get to see them a few times a year makes the time we spend together that much better.
My cell phone broke. I don't get to replace it with the phone I want. I miss my IPhone.
But there are people in Japan who don't even have homes.
(I really am embarrassed about how upset I was about that damn phone).
I was reading some of my favorite blogs this morning and I came across this:
It was on this blog. You should check it out. It's a good read. Especially on days when you feel like having a pity party. (Its the Holstee Manifesto Poster, and you can check it out here: Holstee.com)
And just like that, my pity party was over before it even started.
It's my day off. I am going to make it a good one.