Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Pity Party

I was all set to have a pity party today.

I have been extra tired the last week or so.  I have not been sleeping well.  My arm hurts from my Tetanus shot and I have just overall been feeling crappy.  My cell phone broke and I can't afford to get a new one right now. Joe not having a job is really putting a strain on our relationship.  We are barely making it paycheck to paycheck.  The list goes on.

Last night before I went to bed I was feeling very sad.  Sorry for myself.  Some tears were shed.  (Some of those were shed over my phone being broken.  I cried. Over a cell phone.  I really need to get over myself).

So this morning I woke up and was still feeling sad.  It's my day off so I didn't have to get up.

I was in bed in my pajamas with a cup of coffe and my computer.  Gizmo was there too.  Joe had to run an errand so I was all alone.

So I'm in bed, in my p.j.'s  all alone feeling sorry for myself.  Perfect setting for a pity party, right?

The conditions were just right.

Yet at the same time I was thinking about all the stuff going wrong in my life I was trying to remember all of the things I have to be thankful for too.

My car is old and falling apart.        

But every day on my way to work we pass this bus stop where a man in a suit with a brief case is waiting for the bus. I have a crappy car.  But I don't have to take the bus.

We live in a small space.  Sometimes I miss our old, larger apartment.

But this apartment is cozier and much easier to clean.

I wish my husband had a job.

But I love that we get to spend so much time together.

We got rid of our cable to save money.  I miss watching some of my shows.

But now that I spend less time watching t.v. I have been creating more, and reading more and just hanging out with Joe more.  What's not to like about that?

I hate that my sister lives so far away.  I miss my niece and nephew.

But my family is healthy. The fact that I only get to see them a few times a year makes the time we spend together that much better.

My cell phone broke.  I don't get to replace it with the phone I want.  I miss my IPhone.

But there are people in Japan who don't even have homes.
(I really am embarrassed about how upset I was about that damn phone).

I was reading some of my favorite blogs this morning and I came across this:

It was on this blog.  You should check it out.  It's a good read.  Especially on days when you feel like having a pity party.  (Its the Holstee Manifesto Poster, and you can check it out here:

And just like that, my pity party was over before it even started.

It's my day off.  I am going to make it a good one.


Mer (Lulu's Mommy) said...

iphones are super cool. i am so sorry yours broke. it is super stressful to be in that "i have a contract but my expensive phone broke" stage.

after being to vietnam, i felt a strong sense of guilt for material items. i never talked about it to ANYONE. Another adoptive mom recently told me she had a guilt that sent her spiraling into depression over the very same thing. we have to do what we can when we can btu somehow have some balance of knowing there is nothing wrong with us having things we earned but also help others when we can, right? thinking of you, i know i am not even touching the surface on your post, mostly i want to say I HEAR YOU.

Anonymous said...

So glad that you are over the pity party for today. Gloomy days come and go. I feel them to sometimes. I know that your spirit will overcome the sadness that you feel sometimes. Sending you big hugs!

Number 6 and no more counting! said...

I love this positive talk! You are the best.


Kayce said...

HUGS and more HUGS!! Oh and one more hug! :)