Wednesday, October 15, 2008

12 years

Twelve years ago today my Mom died. I still miss her. A lot.

I know people who think I should have "gotten over it" or "moved on" by now.

And for the most part I have moved on. But I still miss her. Especially on this day.

And on her birthday. And Mother's Day. And Christmas, which she loved so much.

I don't think that ache will ever go away. She was my Mom, after all, and she's not here. And I wish she was.

Today is National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day.

Also a very sad day.

And that's how I have been feeling today.


I will feel better tomorrow.

Miss you Mom.


Half Gaelic, Half Garlic! said...

I am so sorry matter how many years go by, it will still has to be hard...especially on these special days!

Try to embrace the special moments that you shared together...Although she is not physically with you her spirit will be with you always!



Daniella said...

I don't believe you ever truly get over it - maybe move on but not over. It will be 8 years my dad died and I miss him just as much as the day he died. Hugs.

3D said...

It is yours to feel and express. Make no apologies.

Hugs to you today.

Keep smilin!

Kayce said...


Journeywoman said...

I'm so sorry. Here's hoping you're thinking only good thoughts of your mother today.

Briana's Mom said...

I am so sorry you are feeling so sad today. Today is a sad day. I will be lighting a candle tonight for the baby I lost. Hugs to you...

Doreen said...

I never really goes away goes away.I feel your pain, friend.
Hugs to you.

Doreen in Montreal single Mom to Faith-jiangxi & Mia-Sichuan

Special K said...

Of course you still miss her. That's perfectly okay. Don't feel guilty for that.


Jenna said...

I am sorry, I know today is hard. I hope that you feel better tomorrow. The day after anniversaries seem a little better. You are in my thoughts.

a Tonggu Momma said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. Hugs to you today. And I thank you for sharing that I'm not the only one guilty of DWC.

A Mom- In-W8ing said...

I don’t believe you ever truly forget or get over it but moving forward and remembering the good times is what will ease the pain.

“Hold tight to memories for comfort, lean on your friends for strength, and always remember how much you are cared about.”

Smiles! :o)

Anonymous said...

I dont believe in getting over things. i believe in moving through them. Slowly moving through. I am sorry about your loss.

Merrily Down the Stream said...

Hugs and kisses one day late.

Alyson & Ford said...

It is so very hard to lose ones parents. We light candles also for those we miss and pray for. We are so blessed to have Alyzabeth now, but we still mourn the losses of the past. Warm thoughts to you with sunny days ahead.