Monday, September 15, 2008

I'm just not feeling the blog lately. I don't know why. Facebook is easier.

I can write one line and communicate with my "friends"(some of whom I really don't even know).

Maybe it's pure laziness. I don't know.

I have a whole post written about a trip to the circus with the kids, but never finished writing it and am too lazy to do it now.

Had a great weekend at my seester's house. It flew by, as usual. Weekend trips always do.

The adoption picnic was fun. I got to see all of my Northern CA blogging buddies again, and even meet a few new ones. I have not one picture of it though. I had forgotten to bring my camera charger and my camera died at the circus on Saturday.

Kayce did take some pics, so head over there to check them out. All of the kids are getting so big(Rose and Marie, Gwen and Maddy, Grace and Riley) since the last time I saw them.

I was really looking forward to my day off on Wednesday, but then realized I had scheduled two doctors appointments.

Again. Last Wednesday I had three. I need less doctors!

I'm going to be seeing a new kidney doctor. I hadn't planned on sharing that yet, but then I typed it and it seems silly to take it back now. I am overdue for a check on the kidney disease.

I have a strong feeling that it is no longer in remission.I have very good reasons to back up this suspicion, but it's tedious and a little boring so I'll spare you from it.

I'm a little scared to find out. Ignorance is bliss, you know?

Anyway, I have been wanting to get a second opinion ever since I was diagnosed, so this will be a good opportunity to do that.

Am I weird that I feel as though I am "cheating" on my Nephrologist by going to someone else?

I am right?(weird) It is perfectly normal to want a second opinion, right? Just to see what another doctor thinks, and if there is anything else that can be done?

I hope so. Because I totally feel bad about it. I didn't even want to tell my nephrologist's office. I had them fax my latest test results directly to me, so I wouldn't have to tell them.

Of course if I end up switching to the new doctor then I'll have all of my records sent over.

I don't really expect to hear anything new. Joe and I did quite a bit of research when I was diagnosed.

To be perfectly honest, I have been feeling a bit "Woe is me" about it for a couple of weeks now.

Joe is the only one who gets to experience it though. The whining. The complaining. The tears. I save it all for him because I don't want to come across as a complainer.

But sometimes it sucks. Having kidney disease sucks. There are far worse illnesses I could have. I know this.

Okay, snapping out of it now.


I have to go wake up my husband so I can at least see him before he leaves for work. It'll be an early bedtime for me. I'm sleepy already!


7 comments:

Kayce said...

I didn't take enough pictures and I kept thinking that I wanted to have Jacob take one of you and me and I kept forgetting!!!! See you're not the only one who forgets! ;)

Too funny that feel you're cheating on your doc, I meet with a new doctor today and it felt weird. I hope all is well with you, I'll keep you in my prayers.

It was great seeing you yesterday! What fun was had by all and yes everyone is growing up so fast!

See you on crackbook.... HEHE

fuzzandfuzzlet said...

A god doctor would encourage you to get a second opinion.

a Tonggu Momma said...

I think it's wise for you to get a second opinion. I agree with fuzzandfuzzlet - a good doctor will recommend that you do it. Hugs to you.

OH MY #6 said...

Have a great day!

Lea
xo

3D said...

I understand...but sometimes knowing what you are facing and fighting it head on is even better.

Hugs and keep us posted!

Keep smilin!

Rosie said...

Life is very cruel at times.This year has been crap for me aswell.I go back to the hospital for check on my ovaries now...rotten luck.Thinking of you .

Shannon said...

I agree. Get that 2nd opinion. I get into the blogging slump myself. It doesn't help that Facebook is so addicting.