Okay, I'm back from my break.  I think.  I'm pretty sure.

I really like blogging.  I miss it when I'm not posting.

So I have decided that I will keep posting but I will not post when I'm feeling really down or overwhelmed because that's when I start to write things that are too personal.  At those times I will step away from the computer.

A couple of people had mentioned going password protected, but I don't really want to to do that right now. I have a whole bunch of reasons why but I'm too tired to form coherent thoughts on it right now.  It is a possibility in the future but for now I'm going to stay where I am.  And try not to post too much personal info.  I have some friends inside the computer that I have been emailing and private messaging with on Face.book  and that has helped me get a lot of what I want to say out without having to post it here.

Thank you friends inside the computer!  You rock.

So let's see, what's been going on around here since I left?

Not a lot.

Joe has not found a job.  Ugh.

I got the termination notice for my health insurance.  Double Ugh.

I was feeling kind of down.

O.K., I was feeling really down.

I am feeling slightly better.  I still have my moments.

We're doing everything we can to stay in our apartment, at least for the immediate future.  We are in a lease, after all, and it would cost money to get out of right now.

I signed up with an agency to do some babysitting on my time off.  I have had two offers already.

The price of babysitting certainly has gone up since the last time I did it!  And because of my extensive background in early childhood education I find that people are willing to pay me at the top of the wage level.  

Which is good for me.  But dude, how do you people afford to go out?  I'm pretty sure when Sophie comes home Joe and I will not be going out much.  Between the babysitter and the price of a movie, we wouldn't be able to afford it!  Forget about dinner.

So if you live in Orange County and are looking for a babysitter, I am available. 

I am CPR certified and background checked and fingerprinted.

Heck, I'll even give you a discount! :)

I have not been feeling that great for the last few days with this sickness that I can't seem to put my finger on. Headache, sore throat and nausea.  The nausea is what's bothering me the worst. Sipping a coke is the only thing that seems to make it better.  And I don't usually drink carbonated beverages.  But the nausea!  Yuck.

And please don't ask me(like 2 of my co-workers already have)

"Hey, maybe you're pregnant"?

Because in case you forgot

I don't have a uterus.  

Or ovaries for that  matter.

So I'm thinking we can rule out pregnancy :)

I was thinking it could have something to do with my hormone patch, but my body has been feeing kind of sore and I had a slight temperature on Sunday.  

So maybe the flu, but a less severe version of it?  Because 2 years ago I had the flu and I thought I was going to die, that's how bad it was.

I don't know.  But I'm sick of feeling sick.  It is seriously cutting into my Wii Fit time.

And I had lost 3 pounds already.  

I'm off to sip a coke and see if we have any crackers lying around.