Friday, December 11, 2009

I have posted this in years past and it always cracks me up.
Maybe it will help me with the serious lack of Christmas spirit I have been feeling lately.

Somehow we lost the box with our artificial Christmas tree in it when we moved. Also in the box was the Angel Topper that we used to have on our Christmas tree when I was growing up. My Dad gave it to me after my Mom died and it has graced our tree for 13 years since she has been gone.

The fact that it is probably gone for good makes me want to curl up in a ball on the floor and cry. Oh wait. I already did that the day I realized the box was not in either of the only 2 places it could be. We’re not even going to get a tree this year because I can’t bear the thought of replacing it and you can’t have a tree without a tree topper. You just can’t.

We’re listening to continuous Christmas music at my job. It either makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside or makes me want to pierce my eardrums with a pair of sharp scissors. It depends on my mood.

Some of the older Christmas songs make me downright melancholy. Anything from the "It's Christmas Time Charlie Brown" soundtrack makes me want to cry. And Away in a Manger. As well as any song by Josh Groban. Okay they ALL make me sad. I don’t know why that is.

We finally got the internet hooked up at our house again.

Surprisingly, I found that I am not as eager as I thought I would be to jump back on the computer 24/7 like I used to.

There are so many things I can get done when I’m not chained to the computer.

Like read books. And make Christmas crafts. And send out Christmas cards. And watch cheesy movies and play board games with my husband.

I’m sure I’ll re-join the land of the internets soon but for right now I’m just not feeling it.

********UPDATE******** My husband found the Angel Tree topper.  Not the tree, just the topper. I am so happy!!


Stacey T. said...

I'm so sorry about the loss of your Angel....I know stuff like that can be hard, but maybe you can Joe can go out and purchase something really special next year (when you are feeling better about the whole thing) and create a new holiday memory with it....

Re: the internet, I find everythign is so much simpler if I just stick to my phone....when I sit by the computer hours disappear, but at least on the phone, it's harder to do everything.

Journeywoman said...

I'm so sorry about your topper. That just stinks.

I too am not really feeling it, but I'm more like "fake it til you make it. Hoping the concert today will make me feel better.

hugs and stuff.

Jenna said...

I am sorry.... Man I can't imagine how I would feel... I know it must be incredibly devastating. I have all of my mom and dads' hallmark ornaments and all of my mom's Christmas decorations... I would also curl up in a ball on the floor and bawl like a baby if I lost them.
I hate that this has been such a hard year for you and Joe and this is just another way to end it on a crappy note... I hope and pray that the new year will bring you guys better things. You are in my thoughts.

Number 6 and no more counting! said...

Yeah, your husband is awesome!