Sidelined

You know what I hate?

When things seem to be going along smoothly and you get into a groove and it feels good and then something happens and everything gets off track.

My exercising has been sidelined for now by an injury.  Yesterday I was walking around the lake near my work before I went to my second job.

I made it two miles around when I felt like I was getting a cramp at the top of my thigh.  I stopped for a second then tried to walk it off.  The pain was too great and I had to stop.  Joe was watching me from the car and could see that I was struggling so he came and helped me get to the car.  At this point I knew it was more than a cramp, most likely a muscle strain.


Long story short, I pulled a muscle in my groin.  It is very painful.  It's hard to hobble.  Forget about walking for exercise.

To be honest, I don't even care about the pain.

I'm sad and disappointed that I'm not able to keep some goals I set for myself because now I have to rest a couple of days(at the least).

On top of that I miss the release that I was getting from the exercising so now I'm grouchy too.

Hmph.

Something else has gone off track and it is taking all of me not to go into complete panic mode about it.  I can't get into it here, but it has to do with something we had a huge problem with at the beginning of Joe's unemployment, then everything was o.k. for awhile and now problems have popped up again which have brought it to a standstill yet again.

It is causing some rather serious complications for us.

I'm not going to succumb to the panic though.  Nope.  I will not panic over something I cannot control. (I just keep reciting this mantra to myself over and over and over).

In trying to keep up with the positive attitude, here are my thankful things for today:

--I am thankful for the circle of support we have built around ourselves to help us cope as a couple in difficult situations.  How lucky we are to not have to deal with these things on our own.

--I am thankful for the books I got at the library the other day.  I need something to escape our reality right now.

--O.K. this is stretching it because I'm having a hard time with these today but I'm thankful for Dancing with the Stars, because I love that show and we are about to watch it right now(I'm always a day behind on my shows because I can't watch t.v. on Mon. or Wed. nights). 

Well that was kind of a pathetic attempt at being positive.  Tomorrow I will be better.