Rise Above It

I have a hard time letting things go.  I try, and sometimes I think I have, and then something happens and all of the old feelings come up and I realize I have not, in fact, let it go.  It's still there, festering, under the surface and I didn't even realize it was there until something triggers it.

I let my emotions rule me a lot of the time.  It's one of the things I dislike about myself. Joe says  that's the part of me that makes me a kind, compassionate person.  

I don't care.  I wish I didn't feel things so much.  I wish I didn't take things so personally.

I especially find it hard to let things go if I have been hurt(emotionally) in any way.  I have a hard time trusting people, so when that trust is broken I find it hard to let go of the pain of it having been broken.

I cried on my way home about something that happened quite some time ago.  Like 5 years ago.  I thought I had gotten over it.  I was sure I had gotten over it, as it isn't something I think about anymore, or have in a long while.  

But then something happened, out of the blue, and there I am, crying in my car on my way home about it. 

I'm just looking for some closure, but I don't know how to come about it.

I saw this drawing on Pinterest and I love it.  It speaks to me somehow. 

I want to be the girl in that drawing.  I want to rise above the things that cause me hurt.  I want to be able to let them go, and not feel the hurt over and over again by a simple act on someone else's part.

I just wish I could figure out how.  

Sigh.

Joe says I shouldn't let these things bother me.  If someone doesn't want to be in my life it's their loss because I am an awesome person and anyone would be lucky to have me as a friend.  He always knows exactly the right thing to say to make me feel better.  Now if he could only get me to believe it  :)

Do any of you have this problem too?  How do you let things go?