Tuesday, March 18, 2008

This picture was supposed to be posted yesterday but I didn't get it from Lisa until today so I'm posting it now. Fun times.

You know how sometimes you come home from a vacation or a weekend get away and everything you left at home is still there when you come home and it brings you down a little? That's how I'm feeling today. A little bit down. I've been trying to curb the personal details of my life here a little bit the last few months. Things have definitely improved slowly in the last few weeks, but we're still not where I want us to be. It's just not the same. I want things back the way they were. I want to sleep in the same room as my husband.

I want him to have his own car. I want him to have a job. A job that supports us. I want him to have a cell phone again so I can get a hold of him, for goodness sake's. Are those things too much to ask for? I want things back the way they were before my life fell apart almost twelve weeks ago. Gosh, has it been that long? It seems like only yesterday.

To top it all off we're in the middle of the dreaded adoption paperwork renewal. We call it the "Do-over". You know, the one that we will likely have to re-do again, and maybe even one more time after that? Why can't we just let it expire and renew in two years when we are close(er) to a referral? Is that allowed? Can anyone enlighten me on this one? Because it sucks. Everything has changed since the first time we did it. New address, new jobs, new doctors.

All of this makes me very tired. I just want to crawl into bed until everything is "normal" again.

But who knows how long that will be.


Tracy said...

Love that picture! I hope you can just let everything expire and re-do it when you are closer to travel (or referral I guess). How stupid to have to do it now and then again when it expires.

Pam and Jeff said...

We let it expire. I guess it depends on the agency. Our agency said that as long as you are ready to travel when you have to with the correct paperwork done it was a personal choice.

KHM said...

Call your agency - I think if you let it expire you have to meet the new Hague requirements! More money and mandatory classes.

You can get one freebe on the USCIS paperwork, so that is all good.

but you will need a home study update.

I can't remember if we redid the physicals or not - probably.

dmbonilla said...

This is the best picture of you two! Have a great day off!

OH MY #6 said...

One step at a time my friend. And, you are not whinning. This is all good.


Brandi said...

I agree with KHM. If you let it expire, you'll have to meet Hague requirements. I think you have to have everything in by Apr. 1 (at least your application, maybe not the supporting docs or updated homestudy...check with your agency).

Hang in there...one day at a time!

Lisa and Tate said...

If you let it expire, you cannot get it done for free.... or so I have been told. I would let it expire. Hopefully when it is time to do it for the final time, things will be much better in your life! Sorry things are so tough.


Teena said...

cute photo!!!! not sure about the paperwork...I hope you get an answer. that does seem like a major pain to redo each year.