This picture was supposed to be posted yesterday but I didn't get it from Lisa until today so I'm posting it now. Fun times.

You know how sometimes you come home from a vacation or a weekend get away and everything you left at home is still there when you come home and it brings you down a little? That's how I'm feeling today. A little bit down. I've been trying to curb the personal details of my life here a little bit the last few months. Things have definitely improved slowly in the last few weeks, but we're still not where I want us to be. It's just not the same. I want things back the way they were. I want to sleep in the same room as my husband.

I want him to have his own car. I want him to have a job. A job that supports us. I want him to have a cell phone again so I can get a hold of him, for goodness sake's. Are those things too much to ask for? I want things back the way they were before my life fell apart almost twelve weeks ago. Gosh, has it been that long? It seems like only yesterday.

To top it all off we're in the middle of the dreaded adoption paperwork renewal. We call it the "Do-over". You know, the one that we will likely have to re-do again, and maybe even one more time after that? Why can't we just let it expire and renew in two years when we are close(er) to a referral? Is that allowed? Can anyone enlighten me on this one? Because it sucks. Everything has changed since the first time we did it. New address, new jobs, new doctors.

All of this makes me very tired. I just want to crawl into bed until everything is "normal" again.

But who knows how long that will be.