I love Saturdays

Today was a relaxing day. Lunch with my Dad, a little nap, and now Joe is making dinner. I am still feeling much anxiety over the money situation. I simply don't know how to stop stressing out over it. I am good at stressing out. Tomorrow we are going to sit down and see what money is coming in(I still have not received a payment from disability-Argh!), and what exactly HAS to be paid right now, and what can wait. Joe won't even talk about the possibility of letting my health insurance lapse. I know he is right about that, but our main concern right now is figuring our where the money is going to come from for it. It looks like I'm going to have to find a full time job with benefits ASAP. I feel terrible, because I promised to do the childcare thing for my friend for the remainder of the summer. I always keep my word, and I hate that I have to break it. Hate it. And she is so happy to have me. But I have to do what's best for me right now. We have to be able to live. Thank you for the suggestions of what to do with the little girl all day. The funny thing is, these are all things I have done in the past, with the group of children I used to work with. It just didn't occur to me to do those things with only one child. Mostly because I don't have the supplies for a lot of those activities and I don't want to spend my own money. I think I will talk to her Mom on Monday and see if we could go pick up some crafts and games to play. I am also planning a lot of day trips(the Beach, the kid's science center, etc). I think that will really help. My goal for the rest of the weekend is going to be to try not to stress and enjoy the rest of my weekend. It is so hard for me to just relax and not worry. So very hard.