I wasn't going to post anything today, because all I have is complaints, but then I thought, Hey, it's my blog, and if I need to complain, then so be it.
--My new temp job wasn't great. I am watching one child, in her home. It isn't that it was demanding. It was just boring. I am accustomed to handling twenty five kids or more, doing art and crafts, cooking, games, etc. I am used to noise and chaos. This was certainly the opposite of that. The child I am watching is a good kid, and she didn't give me any trouble. There just wasn't enough to do. She kept asking every ten minutes "So what do you want to do now?" That makes for a very long day. We even went to the park and to McDonald's for two hours and she was still bored. What do you people do with your kids at home in the summer? I don't think I can take another day like today. It was the longest day ever.
--My hubby and I are working opposite schedules a few days this week. I work 7-4 and he works 4-midnight. He is gone when I get home, and I am asleep when he gets home, so I don't get to see him at all. I hate it. I won't see him now until Saturday evening. Sigh.
--Between spending my whole day with a seven year old and not seeing my husband, I am starting to feel very isolated again. I need to be with people! Grownups! I didn't realize what a social outlet my job was until I didn't have it anymore. I miss the adult interaction.
--Money is so tight right now it makes it hard for me to breathe whenever I even start to think about it. My husband's pay is cut by $1500.00 a month in the summer and I have to come up with a thousand dollars more a month to pay for my health insurance. Don't even ask me how we're going to do that. I just don't know. I have seriously considered letting my health insurance lapse. I know this is a terrible idea. I can't be without health insurance. Not with my health conditions. It's just so much money. I may have to bail out on this temp job(even though I promised my friend I would do it) and find something permanent that has benefits. The whole thing is freaking me out and making me very scared. It is not a good feeling.
--It looks like we are going to be moving. To another apartment in our complex. They are renovating the entire complex, and they want the people who live in unrenovated ones to move to the one that has been renovated. It isn't that I don't want new carpet, and countertops, and appliances, because Lord knows we need them. It's just the thought of moving right now makes me feel sick. The work involved. The stress. Ugh.
There. I think I am done complaining for now. I know I have so many things in my life to be grateful for. I shouldn't dwell on the negative. But I'm having a hard time lately. Between the surgery, and financial woes, and quitting my job, and possibly moving, there are so many things that are uncertain right now it leaves me feeling very worried. Which is not good for my blood pressure. So I need to "knock it off", as Joe so lovingly puts it. But I don't know how. Any suggestions?