Wednesday, April 16, 2008
In a Funk
I'm in some kind of funk and subsequently fallen into a blogger's slump. Hey, that rhymed. I've had kind of a rough week. It isn't attributed to one thing, but a combination of a lot of things. I'm fighting with my health insurance company over their unwillingness to provide me with the health insurance I deserve. Did you know that if you have a major health problem and you don't have any health insurance then you aren't eligible to obtain insurance? It's ridiculous. Reading that sentence you probably figured out that I had to let my Co.Bra insurance lapse. I had no choice. My husband lost his job and we simply couldn't afford the (over)one thousand dollar a month cost. I wasted over six hundred dollars on a short term plan that was supposed to ensure that I would be eligible once my insurance at work kicked in. They lied. It's os frustrating and stressful. My husband lost his job over three months ago and was only last week able to find something to tide us over until the new semester starts again(in August!). Him starting a new job is in itself unsettling for me. He's working the graveyard shift. So he'll teach at the one school he has left during the day, and then he'll work overnight shifts at a local retail store. I have mixed feelings about this. I am grateful he found a job. I am. We're having a very hard time without the pay from the job he lost. It's the shift I'm worried about. Sure, I'll be sleeping when he's gone, but I'm not too keen on being in our apartment alone all night. I don't sleep well when he's not there(even if it's just in the next room). And then there's the fact that he'll be asleep during the day. Yes, I'll be at work for the most part during this time, but I'm worried he won't have time to do anything around the house or take care of the things that we have designated his responsibilities because he'll literally either be at work or sleeping. I'll grow accustomed to it I'm sure. We both will. But we're trying so hard to work through some of the problems in our marriage (for the most part successfully) and there are so many extra stressors right now. I'm so grateful to have weekends like last week to get away and have some fun but sometimes it makes it extra hard to come back to all of the stress, only to find things piling up even more. We'll get through this. I know. I'm just feeling a bit down and in a funk. I'll snap out of it.