Saturday, September 01, 2012

Tomorrow we move.  Well, I move.  I mean, he moves too.  But not to the same place as me.

Like I said, we move.  Tomorrow.

For real this time.  Turn in our keys and never look back.

In hindsight I wouldn't have stayed the last week like I did.  All of my stuff was moved last sunday but I stayed because joe was still there and I didn't want to let go. 

All it did was drag out the agonizing part of moving.  I will be relieved when it is done for good.

Maybe then I can start to look forward.

We put gizmo to sleep today.  I cried buckets of tears.  The vet examined her beforehand and found more cancerous tumors in her abdomen.  It solidified that we made the right decision but it didn't make it any easier.  It was very, very hard.  I will miss her so much.

It's very quiet here without the cat or dog.  This will be the first time in twenty years that I haven't had some kind of pet. That will be an adjustment.  I will miss it.

I'm hoping tomorrow goes smoothly and I can get settled in the new place.  I'm grateful for the extra day off.

It's nine o clock and I'm headed to bed already.  Crying most of the day is exhausting.    :(

I keep telling myself it can only get better from here. 

1 comment:

Kim said...

I know it is hard my friend... but there are bigger and better things awaiting you .. I have been in your situation and believe there is a GOD out there... search for him and LET GO LET GOD...