Friday, February 01, 2008

I took the advice of someone I trust and deleted parts of the two posts I did. I put too much out there, and she is right, we need to protect ourselves because of the adoption. And I just plain felt bad having it out there. My husband is not a bad person. He has some problems and he has some work to do and he made some bad choices. I don't think it's fair for me to tell the whole world about some those choices. Even though I did. I also took out some of the stuff I wrote about work, because Hello, every one I know knows about this blog, including some of the people I work with, and I am not trying to make anyone feel bad or hurt their feelings. I'm just trying to get across that I am having a very hard time right now and I am doing the best I can. I just hope my best is good enough. I am beyond glad that it is Friday. I want to go home and get into my pajamas and forget this week ever happened.


Stacey T. said...

I think that you did the right thing. About the work thing...I would defitely sit down with the Office manager, or whomever you report to (not the Dr.) and explain to them that you are trying really hard, but going through some personal things right now, and you are working VERY hard at not letting it distract you at work.....just a thought. I know as an Office Manager I really appreciated it when my workers took me aside and explained what was going on..just so I didn't think they were slacking off for no reason.

Rebel said...

I am SO glad that you took down some of the things that you had posted... it was actually hard for me to read... in fact, I skipped over some of it! I felt a bit like an intrudder into your life.

I am so hoping things get better for you and your husband and you didn't want the "negative" hanging out there.

Don't ignore the problem... but look for the positive and stay focused on that! When your Sophie comes home... she really needs you two to be solid in your marriage and for her mommy to be in a "good place"!!!!

Sending my thoughts and prayers your way!!!

Don't forget... we are all human and we all make mistakes, it is just important that we recognize, learn, and move on to a brighter future!!!


Fliss and Mike Adventures said...

I don't really know what happened... honestly... I have been busy with work etc... but my guess is that you are feeling 'down' about things... whatever the case maybe... hang in there... in time things will work out... take care

OH MY #6 said...

good idea! Have a good weekend.


PS. did you know I tagged you?

Joannah said...

When you hit rock-bottom there's only one place to go - UP!!!

Here's hoping the coming week will be MUCH, MUCH better than this one.


Anonymous said...

It is probably better to keep super personal stuff off the blog. A family had their Ethopian adoption pulled by the Ethopian government because they posted a photo of the child before the adoption went to court in Ethopia and they were fund raising online, both illegal in Ethopian adoptions. I am not sure of the rules for China but you would not want your social worker or agency head reading this stuff. i have had my reservations about you becoming a parent,depression, financial problems, health and marriage problems, imagine what your social worker may think.