It's eight o'clock and I just got out of the bath tub and I'm laying on my couch feeling, well, Blah. I really hope I'm not getting sick.
I'm supposed to spend the entire day tomorrow at a friend's one year old's birthday party. I'm going early to help out, and staying late because I don't have a car, so I really need to be feeling better than I am feeling right now.
I think I'll be okay after a good night's sleep. I have a feeling it's just a flare up of the kidney disease.
The kidney disease that I cannot afford to see a doctor for right now due to the pre-existing conditions clause my insurance company placed on me.
Bl.ue Cr.oss sucks. Actually, from personal experience I find that most in.surance companies suck.
I'm not spelling anything out because I don't want people coming to my blog by googling
"Bl.ue Cr.oss sucks".
Did you you know two people found their way here this week after Googling "I hate Mother's Day"?
Did I really say that I hated Mother's Day?
Gosh. Angry much?
For the record, I don't hate Mother's Day. It's just a hard day for me and it makes me sad.
Sometimes anger is an easier emotion for me to verbalize than sadness.
I do know that one day in the future Mother's Day will be a joyous day for me.
And I am capable of being happy for those that I know who have their Moms, or are Moms.
After all, I am spending the entire day tomorrow at a friend's house, celebrating her daughter's first birthday. And she's pregnant again, and I am thrilled for her. Especially since we met through an infertility support group. That makes the celebration and the pregnancy even sweeter. Hi Lynn! See you tomorrow!
Someday it will be me. Someday. Until then we'll wait. And I will try not to be so angry.
Have a great Mother's Day weekend.
If you have your Mom
Or you are a Mom
Very, very grateful.