I prayed a lot last night. I didn't just pray for us to have enough money to pay our bills or for me to find a job. No, I prayed for me to have a more positive outlook and not to worry so much. Worrying is not good for my stress level, which in turn is not good for my health, ie, the kindney disease. I can already feel a sore throat coming on because of the worrying I have been doing over the last couple of days. That's how it goes. Something stressful happens, and I come down sick. I know I have had a lot to stress over the last couple of months, but I have to change my reaction to it. Somehow. I prayed for that. I know this will not last forever. It is rough right now, but we will get through it. In October(the first to be exact), Joe will be back to getting his full pay. We will be getting a check from my retirement plan that we cashed in(please don't comment on what a bad idea this is. We have no choice). That will allow us to get caught up, and hopefully pay some of my family back. Although we will never be able to pay my Dad back for everything he has done for us. It goes far just beyond financial support. Anyway, I am going to try and have a more positive outlook about the entire situation. There are only ten weeks until October first. We can survive ten weeks. We can. And I will find a job. Soon. I will. (I think I can, I think I can, I think I can.........)
P.S. Many people have commented or e-mailed me saying I should try a temp agency. The reason I have not tried that thus far is that I truly thought I would find a job on my own within a couple of weeks. Here it is, four weeks later, and Nada. Also, I was afraid to get a temp job that might have no opportunities for Health Insurance. If none of these interviews pan out, I will be headed directly to the nearest Temp agency. I am bringing in some money right now(as little as it is), watching my friend's daughter during the day. My next plan of action is going to Target and getting a part time job on the weekends and evenings. My only concern with that is I find it hard to stand for long periods of time(due to the kidney disease), and that job would require that. I'm not using my disease as an excuse. I'm just saying because of it I have certain physical limitations. I do appreciate all of the advice. Thank you. I can use all the help I can get!