Thursday, July 12, 2007

A quick update

I am hanging on by a very thin thread here. This just has not been a good week(month?) I miss Tessie so, so much. I didn't expect it to hurt so much. I mean, I knew it would be hard. But not this hard. I haven't felt like this since my Mom died. No, I am not comparing my Mother's death to the death of my Dog. Or maybe I am. I guess what I'm trying to say is that grief is pretty much the same, whatever the loss. It takes every ounce of my being to drag myself out of bed every morning. I am so tired. So tired. I still can't find a job. It is frustrating and discouraging. I didn't think it would be this hard. I have an Associate's degree. I consider myself semi intelligent. I am pretty well spoken. I am dependable(I was at my last job for 14 years. Do people not see this as dependable?) What I lack is experience in the field I would like to work in. I may have no choice but to go back to teaching, or after school care. My heart just isn't in it. And that's hard too. From the sound of this post, everything is just hard right now. That about sums it up. Hard.


redmaryjanes said...

I'm sorry that you are having such a hard time. I will keep you in my thoughts. Don't give up. It will work out.

fuzzandfuzzlet said...

I am sorry. It might justify your grief to know that I suspected this was a terrible, horrible time for you. I think pets are always special, but for an infertile couples have a unique relationship.

On the job front. I mentioned this before but I really do think you should check into your local school system. Most will give a great benefit package for a full time employee. I think it will be inline with your experience, yet give you a new and exciting work experience.



Shannon said...

I'm so sorry about Tess- esp on top of everything else that's going on. Hang in there. ((Hugs))

Joannah said...

Michelle, I'm so sorry to hear about Tess. I know how hard it is to lose a beloved pet. I hope you will have better luck with your job search and that you can begin to get out from the hard times you've been through recently.