Friday, August 10, 2012

Gracie Day

8 years ago today my sweet niece Gracie became a part of our family. One the one hand it seems like it was yesterday, but on the other I can't believe it has been 8 years(or that she will be turning 9 soon-sob!)

I was so fortunate to be able to travel to China with Lisa and Scott.  It was an amazing journey that I will never forget.

Here is a video I made for Lisa and Scott shortly after Gracie came home:

It was on that trip that I decided I wanted to adopt from China. I called Joe(in the middle of the night for him-I woke him up) and said "I don't want to try getting pregnant anymore.  I want to adopt from China".  Without hesitation, without missing a beat, without any questions he said "I don't care where our children come from.  As long as we have them together.  Let's do it".

We started paperchasing a few months later.

Today was a  bittersweet day.  A lot of tears were shed today, not just over the adoption, but over many things.  I sat in a Denny's restaurant this evening and cried my eyes out and I didn't care who saw me.  That's not like me at all.  I prefer not to show that much emotion in front of people, especially strangers at Denny's.  I couldn't help it though and I couldn't stop.  Good times.

There has been another change of plans for the weekend and it looks like I will be flying up to my sister's instead of driving(don't ask).

No matter how I get there, on Sunday I will be sitting in the Big Sur river with a cold drink in my hand and try to forget about all of the stuff that made me cry like a baby in the middle of a Denny's restaurant.

It will be a much needed break before I return to start packing up the only home I have known for the last 14 years.

I'm gonna need some more tissue.


Cora Huffman said...

Enjoy your weekend! I can't imagine what you are feeling and going through. You have every right to cry it is good for the soul. You are in my thoughts more often than I am sure you think! Take care of yourself!

Journeywoman said...

I hope the weekend is good and the trip is better.

Thinking thoughts full of love for you.

Jenna said...

I am crying like a baby... I hate the way things have played out for you and Joe... Life is being so unfair, an I just keep praying for a very happy ending after so much struggle. I am so sorry Michelle.
I hope you have a wonderful trip, I hope it is a much needed rest before you take this next step.

dawn said...

I can't even pretend to imagine what you are going through but just know it makes me cry when I read about it so I am sending you love, and hugs and hope lots and lots of hope for a beautiful future, just around the corner.