I know I should post something here, but all I have is whining and complaining and depressing stuff, and nobody wants to hear that on a Friday. I had a rotten day. And it's Friday! And I got off early! How can that add up to a rotten day? It's the same story, different day. The first of the month is rolling around. All the bills are coming in. Bills that we can't pay. Sometimes I just get scared and freak out because we really can't pay most of these bills right now. Today is one of those days. We're living on practically nothing. I am beginning to think we might have to let my health insurance go. I know, I know, I have kidney disease and we need that insurance. But I can't pay it and I can't ask my family to keep helping us. I just can't. I honestly didn't think it would take me this long to find a job. I thought I would be a month into my ninety day trial period by now. I have applied for over forty jobs. I have only gone on three interviews. Out of forty jobs. One of them I didn't get and I'm still waiting to hear back from the other two. I apply for jobs every single day. I am frustrated and discouraged and scared. I got a ticket today because my car registration is overdue. And there is a crack in my window that needs to be fixed. I got fix it tickets for both. I have never in my life gotten a ticket. Ever. Well, I think I may have gotten a parking ticket once, but that 's it. I have never been pulled over before. It sucked. I cried. Nice. I have until September to pay the registration and get the window fixed. That's going to cost about $500 total. I can't even think about it right now. I think I'll stop now, before I bring all of you down with me. At least it's Friday. That doesn't suck.