Wednesday, August 02, 2006
Bed Rest. Bah.
So I'm trying to do what the doctor said. Take it easy, rest, drink lots of fluids. Easier said than done. Why is it that when I have to get up and go to work the alarm wakes me from a dead sleep, but when I don't have to get up I wake up a full twenty minutes before the alarm would be due to go off and can't fall back to sleep? Why? Anyway, I'm bored. I am actually glad that my husband insisted I do what the doctor ordered, because I'm feeling pretty lousy. This is one bad cold. I have a feeling it was pretty close to becoming pnuemonia, judging by the wheezing and shortness of breath I am experiencing. The antibiotics should take care of that. I called my work this morning to apologize for leaving them in the lurch like this. Apparently my boss was complaining about my calling in sick. Now usually this would bother me(who am I kidding? It did bother me. A lot). I very rarely call in sick. I can't tell you how many times I have dragged myself to work when I am feeling lousy. Apparently it doesn't matter how sick you are, because she came in to work when she had Cancer, and nothing compares to that. Give me a break. How about a little empathy? How about a Thank You for working all summer long so you can stay home? This really bothers me. It is just one of the many things that is causing me to seriously consider a change in jobs. Possibly careers. I am sick. I have a doctor's note telling me to stay home. I am coming back to work a full day early. I don't need to be made to feel guilty about it. One of the things that has come up in therapy lately is how I don't take care of myself. I put others before me. I try too hard to please. I need to stop doing that. Since being diagnosed with the kidney disease I've started to realize how much stress plays a role in my health. I need to start putting my needs before the needs of everyone else. I need to stop worrying about what other people say behind my back! I'm done with this now. I'm letting it go.