I haven't had a lot to say lately, mostly because I have been so busy and then too tired. I'm still missing the kids. It is so quiet around here. It doesn't help that Joe has been working at his part time job pretty much every single day, even on the weekends. Tonight he is working until midnight. I shouldn't complain, because we need the money, but I miss him. I was supposed to go to work today, but at the last minute decided not to. I have seven more days until the kids return, but I have major cleaning to do in our room. I'm hoping the painting had been done so I can get in there tomorrow and start decorating. I am planning on going in the rest of the week. Last night a friend and I attended a wedding for one of the girls that we grew up with at the stables. It was a beautiful wedding, but I wish Joe had been there with me. I spent the majority of the reception sitting at the table by myself. My friends were all out dancing, and I just didn't feel up to it. That pretty much sums up how I have been feeling lately. Blah. Irritable. Sad. Anytime I go somewhere, I just wish I was at home. I know it is the Prednisone making me feel this way. Knowing what is causing it does not make it easier to deal with. The drugs the kidney doctor gave me for the irritablity make me sleepy, so I stopped taking them. I am down to thirty milligrams of the Prednisone. I have to take it for four more months. If it wasn't working so well I would ask him if I could go off of it sooner. But it's working. So I guess I'm going to have to suck it up. Four months feels like an eternity. I want to feel normal again. I want to look normal again. I got my hair cut today. I had to stare at myself in a mirror for forty-five minutes. I had to look away. I can't believe how fat my face has gotten.
My friends say I shouldn't obsess so much over it, because it is the Prednisone causing it, and it will go away when I stop taking it. Well that's great, but it is still unattractive and makes me feel ugly and won't be going away for another four months. You won't be seeing any pictures of me for awhile. I'm so bummed we waited this long to take our dossier photos, because now I look obese in them. Speaking of our dossier, I found out today why our I171 has not been processed. They have been waiting for us to send them proof of Joe's citizenship. I had no idea. I sent them a copy of his passport today, but who knows how much longer this will delay us. It feels like this is never going to happen. Sorry this is such a downer. I'll be better tomorrow. Preparing the room for the year is one of my favorite parts of my job. New decorations, new toys and games, new kids. A new school year.