Tuesday, May 29, 2007

I wish I had something funny, or intelligent, or enlightening to say, but I really don't. One day just seems to blend into the other lately. I am the type of person that does better with structure. Getting up and going to work every day gives me a purpose, and I find when I am busier, I actually get more done. Needless to say, being home for the last three weeks has not been structured. For the first time in my life I don't have to get up and go to work in the morning, and I don't have to worry about getting to bed early so I will be able to get up at 5:15 a.m. This last week I have been having a hard time scheduling my day. I find myself wandering around my apartment aimlessly, in my pajamas, wondering what I should do now. My house is clean. I took care of that this weekend. I have plenty of projects I need to finish. I just can't seem to get motivated. I'm not complaining. I have never felt this rested in my life. I have been reading like crazy. I finished two books already. I have more free time than I ever had in my life. Yet I feel isolated. I will go two or three days without leaving the house, Joe being the only person I come into contact with. I don't want to go back to the job I left, but I do miss the human contact. I think it will be important for me to find another job sooner rather than later. I think it is just a case of "cabin fever". Sometimes I get an overwhelming desire to leave the hous, even if only to go to the grocery store. Yesterday I went outside to get the mail and just the act of being outside made me realize how important it is for me to get out of the house. So that will be my goal this week. Get some projects done, and get out of the house more. Oh, did I mention I'll be leaving to visit my sister for a week next Tuesday? Then I'll wish I was back here in my empty, quiet house for sure! This post was a bit rambling and didn't really have a point. I think I better go get the mail or something.


Julie said...

You know what. I say give yourself a little permission to relax for a bit. You haven't been off that long. It's not like you are a slacker, you've been working hard for many years. There will come a day where you will want to be more productive, and until then, don't feel guilty.

fuzzandfuzzlet said...

I thought you would get a kick out of this story.

My neighbors cat is missing :( When my 8 year old son found out him and the neighbor girl decided to play pet detective. They went searching for clues to find the cat. The cat`s name is Sophie. They were Searching for Sophie :O


fuzzandfuzzlet said...

oh and a job thought. This will not do you a lot of good this summer but may be a great consideration for fall.

Have you considered working for the schools as an Educational Assistant? I am not sure how your local system works but in ours you can stay fairly busy as a substitute IA. Granted the hours are not regular but the hourly rate is decent. It may or may not be enough to off set the days you do not get called to work.

Of course if you can get in as a permanent IA the hours would be guaranteed and in most school districts the benefits are great.

redmaryjanes said...

Thank you so much for coming by my blog! I'm sure that you will find your rhythmn and soon your days will become filled with things you hadn't previously imagined..Enjoy your time off. I think it's great you are visiting your sister.

Alyson & Ford said...

But since you are feeling guilty about not being as focused as you were while working, make a list. I find that crossing off items on the list shows the positive progress I have made. The list should be detailed about each task. It really helps!


Alyson & Ford said...

How is Tess?