Good Thoughts Needed and 7 months

I need all of your prayers, good thoughts, and energy. Our dog Tessie is sick. She has been for a couple of days, but I have not written about it because I just couldn't find the words. On Thursday she started vomiting. She always goes outside to do this. She knows I don't like vomit in the house. She is a very smart doggie! I went outside to see what she may have eaten to make her sick, and when she was coming in, she got stuck in the doggie door. I had to help her get in. This is extememly unusual. Although she is fifteen years old and has had a few problems with her back end in the past, she has no problem with the doggie door. She came inside and sat on the couch. She looked a little strange to me. I don't know what it was, but she was tilting her head to the side and looked kind of spaced out. I went about my business, and I see her getting up and walking rather unsteadily towards our bedroom. Sometimes she likes to lie in there on the bed so our little dog doesn't bother her(She's a pest). She gets about half way there, and throws up on the carpet, no warning signs. Then she started walking in circles with her head tilted to the side and wouldn't stop. Finally she just fell to the floor, twitching. I freaked out. I ran over to her, and picked her up and put her on the couch. This is no small dog. I don't know how I did it. I was hysterical. Joe was running an errand, so I call him on his cell and tell him to come home now. Tess seems better now, but is lying on the couch with her head tilted to the side and her eyes are making these rapid movements. I am still FREAKING out. Crying, holding her head in my lap, calling Joe over and over to see where he is. Finally he comes home. She kept wanting to get up, so he carried her outside so she could go to the bathroom. She could not stand alone, and kept tilting to one side. He brought her back inside and "googled" her symptoms. It looks like she may have Canine Vestibular Disease. The good news is that it looks like she will probably recover. How long it will take remains to be seen. We are planning on taking her to the Vet, just to make sure. I was so hoping I would get up today and she would be better. She is better, but still cannot walk on her own and refuses to eat. I did manage to get her to drink a little. This is all just so upsetting to me. I know she's fifteen and won't be here forever, but I'm just not ready to let her go. I know I'll never be ready.


This last picture is of my hisband taking Tess outside. That is the sidewalk he is sitting on, and people had to walk around him to get by. He didn't care. All he cared about was that Tess was comfortable. I love that man.

Oh yeah, and today is our 7 month Log In anniversary. I don't feel much like celebrating.