To bring you a rant. Or a temper tantrum. Or a complete and total meltdown. Whichever of those things best describes the situation that went on at our house last night, which subsequently ended with me crying myself to sleep and waking up this morning with my eyes swollen almost shut.
And I can't even share it here with you all. Sigh.
This adoption is kicking my butt.
It has to do with updating our paperwork and a huge problem that we just found out about last night(via e-mail).
This of course has had us on the phone with both of our agencies this morning(we have a home study agency for the American side of things and a placing agency for the China side), trying to figure the whole thing out but right now it is a hot mess and I'm just so tired of it all.
Last night I was sad. Today I am angry.
Why can't any of this be easy?
How can "the powers that be" expect two people's lives to stay exactly the same and not have changed at all in a three year period of time(when we started this whole process)?
Everything has changed for us in the last 3 years. Our address. Our jobs. Our income level. Our doctors.
Why do they have to change the rules, making it more difficult for us to obtain the information that they require? (Although it is totally our fault that we have to adhere to the new requirements. But still-why did they have to change them?)
Why is China taking so freaking long, which is requiring us to do all of this over again in the first place?
After lengthy conversations with both agencies it appears that all will work out. But first we must spend hours and hours of time obtaining all of the information that they need and mucho dinero to bring things back to where they should be.
If you are the praying type, could you spare one for us? We're gonna be needing them.