Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Weight loss and feeling nervous

I lost 2.5 pounds this week. With the weight I lost on my own, that adds up to seven pounds. I know I should be thrilled. But I'm not. It's just that when I look at the big picture and the outrageous amount of weight I have to lose, it is so overwhelming. If I lost 5 pounds a month, it would take 14 months. You do the math to see how much total I am supposed to lose. I can't even type it without tears welling up. How did that happen? How did I manage to get this fat? I can't do this to myself. I have to focus on one week at a time. Forget the above paragraph. I'm overly tired and extememly worried about the doctor's appointment that I moved up from next week because I can't take the waiting anymore. I am praying that whatever condition I have, it is treatable and won't pose a problem with the adoption. Praying hard.


Kim said...

One day at a time, Michelle. You CAN do this, it just takes resolve and lots of patience.

I hope you receive good news from your doctor.


Stephanie said...

Try to get on some type of exercise regiman and DON'T be a total slave to your scale. With some exercise you can gain muscle, which even though weights more than fat, burns calories even when you are just hanging out. Take it from me - I started a Jazzercise program in January and even though I haven't lost that much weight, I have dropped a dress size. It is so worth it!

Jenna said...

I know that losing weight is hard but I beleive you can do it!

Joannah said...

Hey, Michelle! That is an accomplishment. Just chunk your weight loss at like 5 pounds at a time. Don't let yourself focus on the whole amount. That's way too overwhelming. Celebrate each 5 pounds by doing something that makes you feel good about the process. I don't recommend celebrating with chocolate cake, however. I've tried that and it's counter productive - imagine that!