screaming match heated discussion the other day with my boss about me leaving, and why, and why she didn't even have the courtesy to say one word when I gave my notice. No "Thank you for fourteen years of service", no "I'm sorry you are going", nothing. My husband is always telling me I can't expect people to act a certain way if they don't posess the maturity or emotional skills to do so. He says I have to be the bigger person, and act in a professional manner and ignore the idiots people I am having problems with. All of this makes perfect sense. Yet at times is soooooo hard for me to do. I have been praying a lot about it, and asking God to please help me be the bigger person. It has been hard. I have been struggling. And then the blowout with my boss happened and I felt like I had failed. Miserably. Sometimes I wonder why do I always have to be the bigger person? How come no one else has to act like a mature adult? Why is it that I am the only person willing to be completely honest about my feelings and willing to talk about it? Then I realized these are not the questions I should be pondering. I should be asking myself how can I be a better person? I accept responsibility when I am wrong. I say I'm sorry if I did something that warrants it. I try to be a good person. But I haven't been trying hard enough lately. So I apologized to my boss today, and opened up the lines of communication regarding my departure. And you know what? She said all of the things I wanted to hear a long time ago. It was hard for her. She simply is not an emotional person and is unnaccustomed to sharing her true feelings. But I feel better about it now. I am still leaving. It will be a relief to go. But at least I am not leaving a job of fourteen years on bad terms. I will leave there knowing I did everything I could to make a bad situation right. I will leave there being the bigger person.